Nothing makes us so lonely as our secrets (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} tirtairngiri) wrote,@ 2004-02-11 06:28:00 |
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Still stuck on stupid
I was at the grocery store and an old man came up to me. He said "I don't want you to think that I am hitting on you because I am well past that but I just had to tell you that I think you are beautiful" I thanked him and I felt it. He walked away before even expecting me to thank him. There was no agenda, this was genuine and I genuinely felt beautiful, which I normally don't.
I have been told that I was beautiful before only as a very overt pick-up line. I do appreciate it everytime but just as much as I would appreciate a beautifully wrapped gift only to find that it is empty when I open it. There is effort in these empty words just like there would be effort in wrapping the gift. I can only appreciate that. The moment in the grocery store was worth appreciation and would be more likely to raise my moderate self-esteem than a pick-up line.
(of course, he was old, wasn't wearing glasses, probably needs them,....)
Nothing very productive came from the dentist appointment. I now have more drugs and another appointment. The drugs are annoying. I don't know how much longer I can stay stuck on stupid. I went from reading Khalil Gibran to a 50 cent romance novel.
I was at the grocery store and an old man came up to me. He said "I don't want you to think that I am hitting on you because I am well past that but I just had to tell you that I think you are beautiful" I thanked him and I felt it. He walked away before even expecting me to thank him. There was no agenda, this was genuine and I genuinely felt beautiful, which I normally don't.
I have been told that I was beautiful before only as a very overt pick-up line. I do appreciate it everytime but just as much as I would appreciate a beautifully wrapped gift only to find that it is empty when I open it. There is effort in these empty words just like there would be effort in wrapping the gift. I can only appreciate that. The moment in the grocery store was worth appreciation and would be more likely to raise my moderate self-esteem than a pick-up line.
(of course, he was old, wasn't wearing glasses, probably needs them,....)
Nothing very productive came from the dentist appointment. I now have more drugs and another appointment. The drugs are annoying. I don't know how much longer I can stay stuck on stupid. I went from reading Khalil Gibran to a 50 cent romance novel.
