When a friend asked me how things were I told him that things were quite strange. Things were not quite as they should be, somewhat similar to the premise of Sliders. That in fact I was expecting a guess star appearance by Christopher Walken by next week.

AND WOULDN"T YOU KNOW!!!!!!!
As I was driving past a turn not too sharp to blur my vision a figure was standing out of place, off in a ditch. He really looked like a character from the XFILES with his white shirt, tie and trenchcoat. He was standing in the rain, just standing there and holding something in a white plastic bag. And when he looked up he looked like none other than...............envelope please.......... yep you guessed it..Christopher Walken.
oh, OH! CMON!!! It was just a joke, something said so swiftly that it might not have even been funny. AAAAUUGGGHHH!!!!!!

so......., this is hell huh? Well then, it isn't as bad as I expected. I mean really, I was expecting a few more pitchforks, fiery pools, demon nymphs and all those other 19th century fairytales to induce the fear of God. I suppose this is probably along the lines of hell nowadays anyway. Just think of the majority populating hell now. Sure, Hitler is around somewhere but really it is people like your next door neighbor, you know, the one having an affair with his secretary. Now is he really THAT bad of a guy? I mean, sure, going to hell, no doubt, but he always remembers to recycle and his yard is so clean!
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I have been reading the lyrics to songs, trying to find a song to relate to. I can't seem to put words to my train of thought( that derailed a time ago). If I find the words, the right words, then maybe I can understand where I stand, me in relationship to me. Not really, it is me in relation to every other thing. Sometimes I find a song that comes very close, for a brief moment I realize that for this song to be written some poor soul has felt like me. I wonder about them, but only for a brief moment. That passes, the song is not quite right.
Maybe I should write my own song......
can't find the words....
can't find....
something.
I haven't been sleeping well recently, which is very odd considering all the spare time I have to sleep away. Insomnia, it seems like the going trend these days. I really hate jumping on any bandwagon though.

I keep trying to convince myself that I am not down, I am not depressed,
Maybe I will say that I am just blue (only from holding my breathe)